Being an adult is soul-crushing. Most of the time, life is nice, but challenges come and go, and sometimes, we’re not in the best position to handle them mentally, emotionally, or financially.
What keeps us holding on is our spirituality. No matter what we believe in, spirituality is the last strand of hope we pull out to keep ourselves afloat while feeling all the pain life presents us. It’s so cool to be an adult, right? Take me back to when I was a kid, when my biggest problem was how to escape from my mom when she forced me to take an afternoon nap.
But seriously, I have been feeling a lot of mixed emotions lately about the different situations in my life. I am paying off a debt, my mom needs to undergo a shockwave procedure, we’re going to pay for our house’s move-in fee and mortgage soon, and we need to fix so many things in our current rental before moving out (because, hello, dogs!). At work, I also have assignments that I need to deliver with the highest quality and productivity, even if I am not at my best.
Maybe for some, my situation doesn’t seem that bad. Thank you for seeing it that way. I hope to see my situation that way too! But no matter how I try to keep myself positive, I am just a human being. Sometimes, my strength falters.
And that’s where God or the Universe’s strength comes in.
I let myself be overwhelmed by these emotions—to feel them—because they deserve to be acknowledged and felt. As I do that, I surrender it all to God. I surrender my control to the Universe.
I surrender everything and make myself “helpable.” It’s a term I learned from Sonia Choquette. She said that miracles happen all the time, and bigger ones only work when we allow our helpers to help us; when we open ourselves and accept the help they offer. The thing is, I know this already, and I’ve seen how it worked wonderfully, but again, I am just human, and sometimes, I also long for control and certainty. I know I should always surrender everything, but right now, I am at a point where my circumstances have forced me to let go and surrender.
I am crying as I write this because I am so ashamed for feeling helpless even though I know that doing this, being in this situation, will now be the start of experiencing the miracles. My Spirit Guides, the Universe, God, will now work wonders in my life.
When life gets hard, let down your guard, and accept God’s invitation to fight for you.
Here’s a reminder that we’re never alone in this battle called life!